You know, I 've been meaning to call you. I 've been meaning to call you and tell you how much I miss you. I 've been meaning to call you and hug you and caress you all night. I've been meaning to spend with you a lifetime. I have, I 've been meaning to stay in the dark, after you sleep and caress your shoulders, and your forehead, which is warm during the night, it is warm, the heating on five. I've been meaning to tell you how sorry I am for saying I cannot get attached to anyone at this point in my life, to say it is ok that we are not alone, because I know how distressed you get when it is just the two of us. I have been meaning to call you, you will say, but you will never do.